The doc said,
- you didn’t cause this problem
- there’s nothing you could have done to improve it
- there’s no cure, nothing we can do
- we’ll run one more test
Just having a plan makes me feel better. We have a name for the problem and know what we’re going to do next.
This is a loss worth noting and mourning. Who’d have thought I have to deal with this in the last quarter of my life? Unexpected and irreversible — never words we want to hear regarding a physical condition/deterioration we are experiencing.
The doc didn’t offer false hope. This last test will answer a couple of questions he has.
The big question is: what do I do now?
- I can kick and scream and carry on about the unfairness, the cruelty, the absence of treatment and cure
- I can shut down: quit reading books, quit playing piano, quit driving
- I can pull the covers over my head and cry, “Woe is me.”
- I can be grateful I have two eyes, one of which is working very well
- I can begin making adjustments where needed
- I can ask for help, especially for night driving.
- I can adopt a positive attitude — about what I have, not about what I’ve lost.
My last boss often said, “Attitude is everything. And sometimes it’s the only thing you have control of.” He was absolutely right. Life dishes out a lot of stuff sometimes. Stuff we didn’t want. Stuff we didn’t see coming. Stuff that complicates our situation.
All I can really do, since this life stuff is beyond my control, is to choose how I’m going to deal with it. How can I make the best of a difficult situation?
- I’ll learn as much as I can about my condition
- I’ll be a compliant patient and do what the doc says
- I’ll ask lots of questions of the doc
- I’ll focus on continuing activities and ventures that are important to me without moaning and groaning about things I may have to give up, not now perhaps, but maybe later.
- Monitor my attitude
- I’ll control what I can in my life: my practicing, removing clutter, eliminating things that hassle me
While you may not have lost vision, I suspect you’ve lost other things in your life that have required adjustment. As I’ve said often, the process of dealing with it is the same, whether the loss is major or minor or an accumulation of things.
Check your attitude.
It will make all the difference.
Until next Tuesday . . .